Starting over is so hard to do

I don't know if this is the same with everyone, but for me - every time I have to redo or restart something... it's so unbelievably hard. To an extent where I have to take some days off (depending on the gravity of the situation). If it was a project where I had given a lot of effort and energy, it takes me a while to recover. And it si so exasperating, because I feel I'm never going to finish since I can't even start!

I don't know if it is in all aspects of my life or just on the "work zone". It's the same if I fail a test because I feel I have to start over (anew), if I did something wrong and it cannot be fixed but must we done again (in the kitchen, in the office). I guess I hate repetition. To do something twice, for me it's completely boring. My whole system shuts down literally.

How about in love? I've seen people who stay together just so that they don't need to start over. Well, thank God, I'm not in that group. I was happy when I ended a relationship that was not going anywhere. I felt free. Although, it did take some effort, you don't want to break someone's heart and feelings and all.

I wish I could feel the same freedom in the work as well as in that situation. Maybe if I visualized a bad homework as an ugly, dominating, obnoxious boyfriend, then I'd be happy to do a good homework - with an equivalency of a handsome, intelligent, gentlemanly boyfriend. Then I'd be happy to start over again.

You know, I think that'll work for me. I even want to work now. Cool!!

Hope, it had the same effect on you and you can stop blooging and start doing what you had to do but where too annoyed to do in the first place. Good luck!