My life as a sitcom

Today I thought my life resembled the Sex in the City Show. I was chatting with my friend Amy about how our friend Susan never told us she was dating. We read about it on her blog and such. She doesn't mention names, just that it's over. Now we are terribly intrigued. Who could it be and why didn't she tell us?

So the sitcom part came from us asking to ourselves: shouldn't she tell us and why do we expect to know?

The answer I guess it's simple: if we are friends we are together in the good times and the bad, or at least we would like to be. So, if we are friends and we give each other advice, we worry what's going on and if our friend is okay. Then shouldn't we know when they actually are? Shouldn't we celebrate when something is going right and worry when they are not? Thus, my Carrie Bradshaw feeling.

Now I wonder when I have "left out" a friend of mine and worry. For these little events that are ridiculous, passing and unimportant create bonds between girls and friends, making the friendship stronger. It's sad that I only talk to most of my friends via "updates of my life" emails. At the same time, I'm glad - I can. That way when I see them they still know how I am.

Starting over is so hard to do

I don't know if this is the same with everyone, but for me - every time I have to redo or restart something... it's so unbelievably hard. To an extent where I have to take some days off (depending on the gravity of the situation). If it was a project where I had given a lot of effort and energy, it takes me a while to recover. And it si so exasperating, because I feel I'm never going to finish since I can't even start!

I don't know if it is in all aspects of my life or just on the "work zone". It's the same if I fail a test because I feel I have to start over (anew), if I did something wrong and it cannot be fixed but must we done again (in the kitchen, in the office). I guess I hate repetition. To do something twice, for me it's completely boring. My whole system shuts down literally.

How about in love? I've seen people who stay together just so that they don't need to start over. Well, thank God, I'm not in that group. I was happy when I ended a relationship that was not going anywhere. I felt free. Although, it did take some effort, you don't want to break someone's heart and feelings and all.

I wish I could feel the same freedom in the work as well as in that situation. Maybe if I visualized a bad homework as an ugly, dominating, obnoxious boyfriend, then I'd be happy to do a good homework - with an equivalency of a handsome, intelligent, gentlemanly boyfriend. Then I'd be happy to start over again.

You know, I think that'll work for me. I even want to work now. Cool!!

Hope, it had the same effect on you and you can stop blooging and start doing what you had to do but where too annoyed to do in the first place. Good luck!